I feel so gross

I have the work-out part of my life sinking in again. I am building up stamina, and realizing I miss the feeling of being healthy. Now, I just need to get the food part. I am debating Weight Watchers, but that is just expensive, I have SparkPeople, but that is just annoying, and I cannot do the write down everything I eat because I will stop eating.

I feel so gross in my skin, and I cannot blame my extra weight on baby anymore. I know I have lost, August 18th of last year my weight was 228 including a large baby boy. I am now 162-164ish. 64 pounds in a year isn't too shabby, but I want my pre-pregnancy body back, and I really want it now. My favorite jeans are taunting me, and the jeans I have now are ugly and don't fit well.

I want my meeting Stephen body back. Even though it was done through insane dieting, calorie counting, and working out, I felt amazing. For the first time in my life I felt attractive. And, well, it worked.

I just hate being impatient. 14 pounds to pre-pregnancy. 25 pounds to my goal. I am hoping to reach my goal before Christmas. Seems reasonable. 8 pounds a month. Bring on the jogging, swimming, EA active, and carrots.