New Year. Happier Blog.

I really dislike New Year's, it doesn't make me feel any different then yesterday. Yesterday I was working, today I am cooking. I guess it does give me an opportunity to cook. I really should have been an army cook. I find it really hard to cook in small quantities.

Or maybe I should have 20 kids. Umm, maybe one or two more...

Last year sucked pretty hard. Last year also ruled some. I graduated and am now Lauren B. Young BSN MSN FNP-C which is pretty rad. Conor has gown into a little boy, and although being Mommy Discipline blows chunks, everything else is alright.

The blows though were pretty darn huge. A house unlivable due to now toxic mold. A marriage that almost crumbled due to a vile addiction. And my mom, struggling to go on.

Yet each suck thing has taught me to back-off and protect myself. I didn't take care of myself again this year. I took care of others. I guess when I get to do that I am an incredible nurse, daughter, mommy, wife, and friend. I don't think I can change that ever, but I can accept it and move on.

Move on into a new clean smelling and beautiful house. Move on in my career and find a job I am ultimately happy with. Move on with my guilt about my mom's cancer and just be her supportive and understanding daughter. Move on and grow with Stephen.

This blog is no longer a place to vent and be angry. I am going to jog or hit my exercise bike to do that. I just want a memory of my mom, my son, and my family.

So heres to a new blog, more pictures, and never having to write 2010 again.